SIGHX

yep. i know ruth would be like ' you are sighing again, you even sigh when you tag my blog'. ha. she is really nice thot.
went to my grandma's house to stay these few daes
to hope that i could just stop thingy of them
and stop crying
yes i did somehow helped
but a little only
yes i haf been and still sick since day one when i heard the news
day1 - sore throat , flu
day2 - fever, sore throat, flu
day3 - sore throat, flu
day 4 - cough, sore throat, flu
day5/6 - head ache, fever, cough, sore throat, flu
and finally today cough, sorethroat, flu
yes
sick for a whole week
and i didnt feel like taking medicine
it would really cure much
and i would easily get sick again over the same thing
its not that i dun wanna stop all these 'nonsense'
its just... diffcult
i really thanx all those pple who haf showed concern for me over this matter
lydia, genia, angie, ruth, trina, faith, rachel
thanx alot.
you pple haf cheered me up with all that you can
thanx
i realise that i havent heard myself laugh for a long time
maybe the last time i laughed was ... last wednesday?
yep
now i dun laugh as often as in the past
and i dun laugh at jokes so much as i do last time
sometimes i just feel like 'da cu yi chang'[just keep on crying]
its lke as if there is nothing to smile about on earth
i know i am putting myself into their lives too much
but i wanna withdraw from this game
i am tired
really
but the longer i play in the game
the longer it is for me to get out of the game
and if i hurt in the game, the longer i take to recover

i totally agree with the talk the school gave us the other time about the emotion thingy
the higher you go, the lower you drop
so
the more you laugh, the more you are likely to cry
i will always remember that
look even laughing is bad...
wads good on earth?