i thought that i already abandon the SLEEPING PRO title since now i am able to wake up at 7/8 even when i sleep at 12/1
but i think its IN THE BLOOD
the day after camp, i slept for a 13 hrs without interruption.
today, 12 hours..
if i am going to comtinue like that, i am bound to sleep during class.
can i just run away and not go school?
how i wish. but this will never come true.
even if my dad was the MOE.
sighx people.

went squeak's place today for the chinese singing thingy.
i so think we are going to screw everything up
and i really dont feel like going to school on monday for the competition after all.
i dont even want anyone to appear there.
at least not so embarrassed even if everything goes really awful.
I STILL SERIOUSLY DONT THINK WE SHOULD DO LIAN AI DA REN
i rather a song from bands and stuff
but SHE songs are really diffcult to sing i know..
i dont even know how i am going to act like a guy when i dont even look like one??
but i still anticipate for everything to happen:)
soon enough, jo and angela leave for JJlin's concert and dont know where.
left me and squeak all there by ourselves, our moment together:)
then SQUEAK started to read me 2 pages long letter i wrote/typed this morning.
she took like almost 3 mins and she is done.
WHY DID YOU CALL YOURSELF THE FISHBALL? squeak asked.
i dont know.
to me, only fishball,BLUE and watermelon is the close-est thing i would call myself.
we had out private talk all the way until 5:)
almost 2 hours of peace from everything in the world.


i miss church camp
i miss having breakfast with everyone and hit yian ping
then tease huiyu
have retarded catfights with bonnie.
talking about how niunai can get with joanne
doing the retard clappings with bao gang
and LAUGHING at chaoyi's weirdness.


i still miss obs
kayaking like you never get to see the end line.
eating the same food forever
get to see salty sandy watermelon at the beach and get so pissed off at whoever that abandon that DARLING watermelon
PLUS I CAN GET TO SEE RACHEL EVERYDAY!!
start complaining with her and start talking about all the yummy food.
then we will start thinking of ways to not do an activity
then comes lydiaTAN WHO KEEP ON SAYING HOW FAT SHE IS WHEN SHE IS ONLY 39 KG and how ugly her tan is which made her look more like a normal person
MILDRED will start acting mad and gets madly in love with ME:)
and cassandra[zhou jie] will start limping around and go siao with me with the zhou jie zhou mei rap.
not too far away, we can see davina giving me the werid stares...she will thinking how she doesnt wanna get near doreen at all.
will be able to find lydia agreeing with her.
then SQUEAK comes along really jealous and tries to push cassies away cos SQUEAK is getting so jealous as she want me to help her find invinicible rock king who is hidden in pula ubin.
ANGELA will be then heard first even before we can see her..
she will yell and scream at everything


can we pls turn time back?
an experience like never before.


the feeling is getting stronger now.
i am like pushing it away from me
i cannot take the fact that everything is so coincidental
why?
tell me if the feeling is right or not.
so i know that i would not have such a hard getting over it.


now i feel why jasper means when there will be a point of time where you cannot stop praying.
for me is, i cant stop praising and worshipping him
is that a good sign of improvement as a christian?
GOD, show me the way
and i will go