sighx. boring day.

today was a B-O-R-I-N-G
yep. boring.
had christmas serivce in school today
didnt exactly have any excitement for christmas
but havent sang all those christmas carol songs for a super long time
suddenly i just had all the flash back from last year's carolling with my church at orchard
thinking that i go almost every year to orchard to do carolling during christmas shince a tender age of 5
remember dancing too
ha
then i dunno why i felt like crying when singing WE WERE THE REASON
i am too emotional i guess
genia came to school like super late
poor girl
she had some problems with her leg so went to see a doctor
hope she recovers soon after the operation
yes SOON
cos thats me...HA
slept completely during the movies
felt like crying when i slept
dunno why WERID
so cried a little though
ha
hate movies...
its such a short plot and it spoils your eyes
and its BORING
went to faith's house with zhijing
yep. talked a lot
alot about the combination thingy we were going to op for tmr
got mine set
full lit, ss/history, E A maths, physics, chem
here i come!!!
ha
i really need to take A maths cos of poly
but now thinking of it, i may not go poly
i may just take up the music scholarship
maybe
dunno if i should still learn violin
i dun wanna that ugly mark at your neck
but see how thing go
i may learn the cello...ha
aiming to learn piano violin/cello drums guitar before 20
big dream huh
still looking for a job
no one seems really interested working
haf no where in mine now...
maybe i will go hunt one in toa payoh on sunday.
anyone coming along????

i know you are not coming on 4nov
i will just take it as GOD doesnt want me to see you
and get all hurt and disspointed even more
so i will not go to any of the other event that the rest are appearing for
cos i dunno get all heartbroken when i return home after the event
you say you will try to come one day
when?
i think i have suffered from depression
cos i seem to be having all the symptoms
yep
what to do now
i dunno
dun wanna get my medication for it
i have done everything for you