me

Friday, March 31, 2006

EVERTHING IS IN A MESS

yes.
i just realised that i cant do any of my homework today morning.
i was just looking at those A maths question and chemistry hw.
and they all just stare back at me blankly.
i REALLY DONT KNOW HOW TO DO ALL MY HW.
its like.. when the teacher go through it in class, i am able to follow.
then when the reach home and trys to do them, i cant seem to do a single step.
crap.
i can just see myself going crazy studying.

just found out i got AandD[GB] tmr from 1.15 to 5.15.
this means i cant go for captain's ball and have to rush like siao to church for meeting.
i will just leave AandD earlier.
my meeting is like at 6pm and i take 1hr to get to toapayoh...
i still need to eat dinner and change..BLAHBLAHBLAH

i am getting really pissed off easily and sad these few days.
i am like pissed over everything.

CAMPUS SUPERSTAR FINALS TMR!!
pls watch.
and dont forget to vote..
for GERALDINE and RENFRED.
thank you!

everything is in a mess and it is driving me NUTS.
i will go NUTS over everything in a matter of time.
feel like grabbing someone to talk to me.
feel like grabbing someone to YELL all my frustration at.
wanna go to the beach and scream all my stress out.
slient screamer -- that is what i am.
this will only hurt myself even more cos i am screaming inside.
will i survive the race on my own?

i dunno how now

crap.
everything is in a mess.
my blog look so...big.
just to tell those who dont know.
my tagboard is all the way down..
so pls scroll down yar..


PLS LET EVERYTHING STOP HERE.

dunno wanna face everything on my own.

Monday, March 27, 2006

took the WHOLE afternoon doing this blog layout...yeah.
hosted the pic and stuff..
everything still look so...ok...i dunno what to say.

RACHEL, CAN YOU HELP ME DO MY BLOG?
THAT IS IF YOU HAVE THE TIME.
I WANNA MAKE THIS PIC SMALLER.
THANKS!!

too many things are happening at the same time.
my memory seem to all come back
i am back to what i was a year ago.
or am i not?
dont let your past haunt you.
but my past would not want to let me go
even though i try hard to let it go.
everything in the whole seems fake.
is friendship that hard to maintain?
how about love?
everything that belongs to me seems to fade away slowly..
will you fade away too?

Saturday, March 25, 2006

BLAHh

its been a LONG while since i updated.
currently everything is just so BORING.
school life totally sucks.
really hate school pls.

have quite a lot of work recently and projects to complete.
and the MARCH HOLS WERE REALLY SHORT!!!
i hardly took any rest other than sleeping 10 hrs everyday.
its like tons of work and project and even test to study in the hols...crap man.

practising for enrolment service currently.
i got to practise 2-3 songs for the service cos i am going to be the pianist.
and the main problem is.. i havent played a proper paino piece for 2 yrs..
and i really cant read those piano notes anymore...
i am going have such a FUN time figuring out all those 'bean sprouts'...
wish me all the best.

ITS SO SAD HOW CHENGXI GOT OUT OF STAR IDOL...
yes... that is way in history but i hardly have time to come here and post...yep

oh ya.
went for lydia's chalet party in the march hols.
it was.. ok lar.
just that we played ALOT in the arcade...we are going nuts..

friday, 240306
it was really funny during GB badgework.
cos ms teo was like talking about the personal journal thingy..
and i was doddling SHAWN's name on my paper.
i asked her a question and she came over and was like...
'DOREEN, WHO IS THAT?'
i was like freaking scared lar.
what am i suppose to tell her... 'my charming prince?'
but i just said that i was just doddling a name..
then she asked everyone who shawn is.
and everyone started laughing...esp angela teo!!
she started asking me who shawn is.
fine, i told her.
and she was like ' is this important?'
HA!
now i know i must never doddle a guy's name in class...YES.

so many things happened in class.
my stand is with the students.
not the teacher.
yep.

something got over my head when my mum was complaining to me about how some BO LIAO people go to campus superstar message board and start critisizing others.
i actually went to the extent and typed like a whole long letter and complained to channel U about how dissapointed i was with them.
THEY ACTUALLY REPLIED MY MAIL AND MADE ALL THE NECESSARY CHANGES I SUGGESTED THERE!!
haha.
i feel so happy for those 'superstarS'.
:) but before all these, i never knew i was such a good complain - queen and those who can scold others non-stop. HAHA!!!

yes.
i cant really remember what happened in the hols now...
all i know is that..
I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO THE JUNE HOLS!!!
OBS is coming.
looking forward to skip school for 5 days...
yeah.

thats all about it...

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

LONG DAY AT PS

stayed over at granny's hse from sunday till today[tuesday].
just returned not long ago from PS with clique and lydia.
so, so sorry to all those pple who have been trying to contact me.

staying at granny's place was FUN!
it just plain enjoyment pls.. :)

meet up with rachel, faith and lydia at PS 1st to do our english commerical thingy.
we went to the mrt underpass at a ulu corner and film it there.
i LOOKED SO BAD PLS!!
i still cant believe that i actually went out with a sleeveless red top over a long sleeve pink top, brown skirt and a pair of boots out of the house.
its just werid of me to dress like that.
but i think i really do look preety today....FOR ONCE i thot my dressing was good.

ok enough of me.
then, meet trina and vera.
faith left before lunch.
sent her to the taxi stand.
and off all of us went to MOS BURGER for lunch.
trina decided to watch WALK THE LINE.
rachel and vera tagged along.
raina came slightly late for the movie.
vera commented that the show was BORING!!!
me and lydia didnt want to watch...so we were left stranded in PS.
lucky for us, we shopped for vera's, vitoria's and faith's present in 2 ++ hours.
i ran out of cash.
so lydia, my 1st ATM paid for faith's and vera's gift 1st.
went arcade to play ONE game cos the both of us were so broke after all the shopping.
then, we waited for the rest to finish there movie.
went to eat ice-cream after vera, my 2nd ATM came by.
i still have to buy a really cute cup.
so trina, my 3rd ATM paid for it.

long long time at ps.
i am going back to ps tmr afternoon.
love it now.

Friday, March 10, 2006

FINALLY!!!

the march hols are FINALLY here!!!
hurray! :)
finally can get to do the things i alkways have been wanted to do.
shop, play, eat, sleep ....
yeah man.

GB yesterday was FUN!!!
picnic at larbordor was nice.
ate quite a lot.
vera and i had a our little private picnic in the bus.
we ate prawn crakers and gossiped on the way there.
we were trying to sarcastic the minute we alighted from the bus.
we went walk on saharra desert's sand(sand),
saw trees from australia(trees),
saw a really big deep salty swimming pool(sea),
saw a big long dinosaur that was brown(rock),
walked on grass patches from new zealand(field),
saw hawaii(coconut trees)
& climbed the mount everest(hill)!!!
haha.
the kids were like scared cos we seemed like crazy fools!!

and i really cant believe the fact that me and vera played the playground for 20 miunutes with the primary kids.
haha.
it have been a really long time since i played the playground!!

HAHA!!
I LOVE VERA!!!

today,
going out to vera's hse early in the morning.
cine, flea market in the afternoon with clique.
dinner with vitoria..

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

i dont know what to say

PRAISE THE LORD!!!
i found my wallet at last.
for those who dont know,
i lost my wallet yesterday.

i was looking for my wallet yesterday in school.
went to gerneral office like 3 times and visited the computer lab thrice.
i practically walked back everywhere i travelled that day.
even the AUDI!!!
went home.
came home and cried.
cos i felt the seriousness of lossing my precious roxy wallet.
ez-link, $30 cash, just made popular card, neoprints, first-aid cert, chemistry lab sticker thingy and my darling blue wallet.
counted cost of losing my wallet : $100 +++
crap manz.
then, cried like 2 - 3 times at home cos i am going to be freaking dead if my mum finds out.
trina told me about how she heard that when pple picked up other pple's wallet and take their money and throw there wallet in the bin.
zhijing told me that MG girls would not be so mean to steal pple's wallet and would not exactly bother about giving it back to the general office.

today.
i thought it was the end of the fate between me and my blue roxy wallet.
went to general office 1st thing in the morning.
and i still cannot find my wallet.
ok.
i really felt totally dead this time.
i was feeling moody this whole time.
plus my swollen eyes from yesterday's crying myself to sleep.
felt so depressed.
so i squad down and was thinking about how dead i will be when i get home.
raina came along and poke my waist.
then she tapped on my shoulder and said in a jokingly manner,
'crying arh?'
i stood up immediately, hugged her and started crying.
she was like ' i was just joking'.
lyida explained that i lost my wallet.
sharon came along so i hugged her too and continue crying before assembly.
super embarrassing ok.
everyone was like looking at me.
during assembly, i still could feel tears triggerly down my eyes.
sighx...all raina's fault...HA!
annabeth asked if i was alright after assembly...
and raina promised to go recess with me.
lydia and rachel comforted me as well.
rachel was like ' dont worry. we will help you FIND your wallet'
was really comforted by that...really.
recess.
went to computer lab to gamble my chance.
MY WALLET WAS SITTING IN THE LOST AND FOUND BOX WAITING FOR ME!!!
oh my...
and when i opened my wallet...
not even a single cent was stolen...!!!!
i fely like screaming immediately.
so went out of computer lab and started screaming!!!

list of people to thank
- rachel
- lydia
- faith
- vera
- trina
- raina
- genia
- annabeth
- sharon
- angela
- zhijing
- rachel's angel.
- GOD!!!

yep. thanks pple.
A WHOLE LOT!!!
expecially to those who have been with me on the haunt for my wallet..
and those who kept on comforting me!!!
LOVE YOU GUYS LOTS!!!

prayed really hard yesterday.
now i owe GOD a promise...
i will achieve it!!!

Monday, March 06, 2006

NEW SPECS

did my brands new BLUE specs on friday.
missed GB cos of that.
yep.
i was way lucky to get my specs done that evening.
cos it usually takes days to do specs.
but the person there was like, come and collect your specs in an hours time.
PRAISE THE LORD mans!!!
yeah.

my specs now really cant suit a lot of clothing.
its like...
i look werid wearing anything and everything now.
i dont know.
maybe its just that i am not used wearing these thick specs.
maybe...HA!

anyways, about my weekend.
it was like FUN-FILLED manz.
at last, i finally went to YM's saturday talk thinigy.
learnt about worship.
then, went to jingyi's b-dae BBQ party at costa sands.
it was SO crowded pls.
i didnt expect her to invite so many pple!!!
i did a bday card for her and chip in with my bros for a handbag for her.
me and kendra were like trying to get attention from the marshmallows all the time.
like standing there and waiting for someone to help us cook the marshmallows.
I LOVE MARSHMALLOWS!!!
the cheesecake ROCKS!!
i wanna learn how to play mahjong too!!!

sunday..
went to service as usually.
went out lunch with maylin at long john's
then we went to TP's arcade to play.
it was like my 1st time ever playing para para.
it was super embarassing ok.
i got like only 8% lar.
plus everyone was watching.
but i really do love the drums one.
its so fun.
i must make a trip to the arcade either next sunday or during the march hols mans.
so FUN!!!

i really do my clique stays as one until we all turn 21.
looking at jing's clique together during her bday.
i was like..can my clique stay that long...?
hope so...

Thursday, March 02, 2006

ARHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhh!!!

how can this ever happen man!!!
ALICIA GOT OUT OF STAR IDOL!!!
crap man.
she is like so good lar.
i really like her.
now, even the final last hope of a girl contestant is also out.
rubbish man.
now the competition is left with 3 guys.
no motivation to carry on and watch the show.
a show with all guys?....
but i will.
i want chengxi to win.
how could alicia get out.
i always thought that she had a lot of fans and supporters rooting for her...
this is so bad.
i am SO sad now.

how bad can today get????
1st, i was so pissed in school like before recess?!?!!!
2nd, pmsing today..dont come near to me.
3rd, i scored so badly for progress report
4th, i got so pissed during history with myself
5th, got informed that alicia got out of star idol
6th, MY SPECS GOT ATTACKED BY SOMEONE!!!
broke!!!
wadever 02march06
i hate today!!!

i am so dumb
hopeless
stupid
terribly annoying

most probably i will change a blogskin next week.
this blogskin is too not me.
i am a sadist, loner