HAPPY BIRTHDAY KWOK,j3
ha. yeah.
gave her a tweety card, snow angel's stuff and energy's final fantasy poster...
LOVE YA LOTS:)
everyone seem to be not online and dont blog jump as much now.
cos my blog seem to be so dead here while i still update almost like normal days.
as in, not the exam period.
but i havent went online yet, as in msn.
i dont wanna get disturbed when i study.
i dont know how on earth i am going to pull thru this time of terrible stress.
God will have his way, he will.

my back is dying on me.
out of all the days in the year, it gotta be during the exam period.
sighx, everything started on wednesday.
i was just walking up the hill to school when i felt a sharp pain from my back all the way to my tail bone.
i thought it was just my stress pain, yeah. my stress pain is stomach ache.
so i though that it.
but after that, it was so pain when we are about to go for pe, i sat down and couldnt get up.
yeah, later on during pe, i realised it was my back.
the pain was in my tail bone.
i thot it would fade off after a few hours.
it was there all the way until this hour.

on wednesday, i went to the chinese doctor and had accuputure(dont know how to spell)
it didnt have much help and the pain was still there.
the doctor said that my back's condition is pretty bad and most probably will need to get a pmc to not do pe.
i cannot do anything other than jogging and swimming.
but the thing is, i cant swim for nuts.
on thursday, i went to the clinic and see the doctor plus did a x ray.
i swear i would never wanna go for an x ray anymore in my life.
but for my back, i am quite sure i will need to head back there soon.

report out in 2 weeks.
i really cant imagine myself as a pmc dude.
as in, even though i was quite eager and WANT to get a pmc in the past, thinking about it now, i dont wanna anymore.
yeah.
i want to be a normal person running around the tracks with my friends..sighx.

eoys in 3 days
all the best to everyone out there.
and to me.

OH MY GOSH!!
I SO HATE AMATHS
pls, my gosh.
every part of my body hates it.
I DRAT AMATHS LESSONS!
maybe its just the teacher.
i think he so gave up on me lar.
its not my fault that i dont get what the FFFF he is teaching in class right.
shyte.
i really do hate Amaths.
now, i have more confident in doing better in SS/history than amaths.
i dont even FEEL LIKE WASTING MY PRECIOUS TIME PRACTICING FOR A SUBJECT THAT I WILL KNOW I WILL FAIL FOR MY EOYS.
its maths, it will be such a waste of time.
BUT I WILL TRY MY BEST STILL.
and successfully think of a way to either drop this ANNOYING subject next year or flunk it again in my o's.
HELLO!!!
have you ever done a past year paper when you cant answer any??
I DID!! i couldnt even answer a BLOOD CRAP maths question on last year's paper lar.
i can so picture myself getting my amaths paper during the eoys and just flipping thru it, looking for all the sets questions(cos that is the only thing i know in amaths) and do them, then slowly slack thru the paper and count how many questions i acutally do know how to do cos counting those will be much lesser than counting those i dont know.
ARGH!! i NEED AMATHS DESPERATELY.
but then again, i wouldnt exactly bother about THIS DAMN SPASTIC SUBJECT NOW!!

never ever become a chemistry, emaths, SS/history, amaths TEACHER in my whole life is my moto.
okay, just dont ever teach secondary kids.
they will HATE YOU ALL THEIR LIFE cos they hate the subject.

ARGH!!! i HATE LOOKING AT H__!!
i just hate the amaths book.
damn it.
no matter how hard i try now, i will just fail my amaths with straight F9s for my eoys.
i am SO CONFIDENT FOR THAT!
if i would to get like an E8 or D7 for my eoys, i will just laugh at myself and make sure the teacher remarks my paper or find questions that they can deduce my marks from.

I HATE AMATHS!!

BEWARE: EMO POST.

yes. beware of the returns of doreen's emo postings.
fairy tales.. why do they exist?
to mislead small little childrens that life is as wonderful and great in those stories.
everything has a good ending no matter how hard you are trying to pull through difficult times in life.
to let little children treat it as a bedtime story and fall asleep havving sweet dreams.
fairy tales are stories that acutally have a bad/sad ending stories which is turned by another writer who wants a good ending.
yeah, so FAIRY TALES ARE BAD.
not exactly acutally.
at least they bring in some hope to happy ending in this life and allow this world to have a better positive outlook in life.
i dont mean that all stories and everything that happen in life will definately end with a depressing state.
not as bad as everyone thinks of korean drama.
yeah, korean dramas are nice.
but i do admit that some of them are really draggy and they have too many sad ending shows.
KIMSAMSOON IS DIFFERENT!
okay, i shall stop my promoting of kss cos i caused a great deal of people to become addicts of it at the wrong time of there lifes, the exams time. SO SORRY!

i realised that i am getting very irritating over trends now.
i just hate doing something that everyone does.
i just hate dressing like what everyone does.
sometimes its not that i dress like everyone else.
its just that i predict the future dressing earlier than them and then, it seems as if i am following the trend.
shyte lar.

i have so many subs to cover before my DOOM is here.
i so wanna get over everything in just a flash.
i cant wait to get the fact that one more year to graduation in my head.
i wanna get into ngee ann and keep on growing and work for my own pocket money.
i dont like to keep on taking money from my parents.
thats so mean.
but friends will definately be something i will miss when i graduate.
sighx.

DOREEN IS OFFICALLY CRAZY OVER BEING KOREAN.
wait, i was already like a year ago.
fine.
DOREEN IS OFFICALLY CRAZY OVER BEING KOREAN FOR 1.5 YRs

i am starved.
i WANT MUMMY HOME NOW!!

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shyte, before i realise it.
i have slacked one day and i am on the computer now.
this is really bad.
thats why i was punishing myself to read 5 ss essays before i went to sleep last night.
yes, SS is my bedtime story.
ha.
i am going to cell later and leaving a little early.
yeah.
cos i wanna sleep at 11 and wake up at 830 and study at 9.
ha. yeah.
yes trina is so right, doreen is freaking out like crap.
i will go crazy like that.
opps.
my mum say that i should stop saying that i am crazy cos what if i really turn mad studying and giving myself too much stress.
i guess i get stress over things super easily and freak out over 10 days to exams till i cry.
thats why my mum ask me to go JC.
yeah, guess thats a wise and smart choice my mum made for me.
she knows that i will really go mad oneday if i were to take As.
HA!
then, i would probably be the GEEK in ngee ann..HA!

today chem lesson was so UNPRODUCTIVE!
i am not exactly dissapointed that i went.
i enjoyed myself with emma's and cassie's company:)
THANKS DEARs:)
emma was like drawing my hand and face with highlighted and pen.
yeah.
she used like pink, blue, orange and i think purple and black pen.
yeah.
i SERIOUSLY think i will have an breakout of pimples on my left cheek.
emma, WATCH OUT!!
HA!
she went high on icecream we had for lunch.
how come she always go so high when im around?
maybe she justs goes high with my company.
oh, thats bad.
i can image the both of us in one IMH ward drawing each other..HA!
i must have gone mad allowing her to doddle on me...poor skin.

havent found macbeth yet.
i guess it would be gone for good:'(
some THANK YOU shouts:
LYDIA! - for letting me hug you when i cried and wet your uniform. LOVES:)
SQUEAK! - for going class to class to find my book.
VERA! - for asking pple in 3M for my book.
RAINA! - for checking your 3S lit pple for my book.
KAITING! - who is about to lend me photocopy your macbeth.
CASSIE! - for offering your book to me:)
EUGENIA! - for being so concern about this matter.

even though the book is not found, i still thank you guys.
hope to see it soon though, which i think is impossible.
LOVE YOU ALL:)
thanks for letting me realised that you guys love me so much:) THANKS

now i will just photocopy kaiting's book from act 1 to 3 and take notes from lydia..
and slowly copy all the notes into my FUTURE book after the exams.

i dont wanna be a S_____R anymore.
not literally be one.
like fly to taiwan to train on my vocals and cut an album.
i may just join like a competition and yeah, EXPERIENCE of a S_____R is all i want:)
cos i wanna do a little of all my ambition.
its really embarrassing to type all here.
i wanna be a LAWYER(impossible by now),ACTRESS,DJ,SINGER,DESIGNER,CREATIVE DIRETOR of a company, PSYCHATRIST(i dont know how to spell it eh), ...
should be thats all..HA!
i wanna try a little of everything.
so i guess if i be an actress, i can try out all ambition.. like impossible ones like lawyer.
HA!
yeah, thats why i want to be an actress.
HA! so ridiculous.
enough of CRAP.

SOONFOOL bouncing ooffffffff.

CELL123
I LOVE SOUL!

exams came at the wrong time..
or should i say
ENERGY's ALBUM AND AUTOGRAPH SESSION CAME AT THE WRONG TIME!!
SUPERSTAR ALBUM AND AUTOGRAPH SESSION CAME AT THE WRONG TIME!!
argh.
HA!
i really wanna see energy, soul and MLB...HA!
oh ya.
my new superband clique.
juu - lucify
cassie - MLB(milubing)
elieen - j3
doreen(me) - soul!!
yeah. we call each other by the bands we support...so fun.
and all of us are not going to the auto session for those 4 bands.
me and j3 really want to thou... exams are so in the way.

MGROCS!! woah!
after hearing whatever laoshi said today about her performance, i really wanna go.
cant wait for 20 oct to come:)
that marks the end of exams and a step closer to penang with faith and rachel:)

$118 to zen V.
i thought i was and will be the only one who posses that mp3.
the fact that i really wanted it was because no one has it and its so small and cute.
who can think that lydia has it ages before i start saving for it.
shyte.
second thought of saving it.
BUT I AM GETTING THE BLACK ORANGE VERSION:)
sorry, i just hate the fact of being common.
a girl that dont like to follow the trend.HA!
not exactly trend but i hate to own things that everyone has.
especially the half jacket incident.. its so pissing.
i was like practically the only idoit who wore it during chinese year this year and everyone called me ah lian.
now look who is wearing it.
everyone.
i hate this kind of feeling.
so i better get a brand of my own..HA!

i lost my MACBETH lit BOOK and the exams are a little more than a week away.
i cried, duh.
wo bu gan xin.
i dont wanna copy notes from act 1 to 3.
i wanna face the fact that i have the same amount of time to revise like anyone else but i have to copy notes that everyone did ages ago.
hell.
i really hope it appears on my table tmr or i find it somehow.
really, i prayed hard.
God pls answer my prayer.. i am desperate.
i dont know how i am suppose to survive for o's next year.
there was this morning when i woke up, i started to count how many days left to eoys.
10, and i freaked out that i went to my mum's room and cry.
yeah, i guess i am giving myself a lot of pressure and all.
i am really afraid of not doing well.
thats why i am here giving myself a 1/2 hr break.
gave myself a 1hr treat of reading mag.
i wouldnt have anymore breaks today until 1030.
sighx, its not nerd. its insecure for the future.
i can just imagine myself crying after finishing every single test paper cos i didnt have a clue what to answer.
i am so afraid that i study so hard that when i step into the exam hall, everything is in the air i breathe out and i am left with nothing in my head.
i always experience that for history exams though...so that DO happen to me.

i will look forward for after the exams.
going K BOX!!
yeah, at last i am going there.
but have to take those $$ out from my zen V saving plan...sighx.

my own guitar practices are on their way.
yeah, I WANNA HAVE OR BE IN A GIRL ROCK BAND!!
just like cherry bloom(ying tao bang)
its damn cool ok..
i dont mind drumming or lead sing..SO COOL!

for a split second, i just realised that i have ALOT of cliques.
i can start naming it out like now.
1. US (genia,rach,faith,trina,vera,raina)
2. lefties (mil,kaiting,cass)
3. KBOX gang (jo,angie,kwok,lydia,cass,davina)
4. superband dudes (kwok,cass,juu)
5. band (em,juu,kwok,mil)
6. lesbian 123 (mil,squeak)

LOVE YOU ALL DUDE:)

MY COMPUTER IS BACK!! YEAH!
but the whole computer is re-formatted.
and its darn slow lar.
all my songs are like gone and my msn is like a picture of a dog.
argh.
cant stand this...sighx.
i gotta take pics out of my photobucket soon.
lucky i got a radioblogclub account.
so i still have music to listen to.
AND THERE IS YOU TUBE.
save me.

exams are scary.
it is like 15 more days to DOOMS DAY
yeah, now i feel so un-prepared, scared and nervous.
argh.
i need to finish my emaths this week and start on amaths and chem next week.
i alr studyed 1/2 of physics.
and i am so going to fail ss/history like always.

I AM OFF MY DIET and i found myself indulging in food like crazy
i think its just stress and the fact that i am growing.
hopefully tall.
i am so likely gaining weigh in this stress exam period.
save me, i need to the hit the gym desperately.
i am so addicted to milky bar, honey comb chocolate and cab boost these days.
yeah, i still hate chocolate.
but these are the ones i like only.

i seriously think that i am going mad.
STUDY!!
argh, exams will be over soon but...ARGH~!

MLB ROCKS!
SOUL ROCKS EVEN MORE!!!
HAHA!
computer still down.

PLS BUY SUPERBAND ALBUM!!

ARGH

OH MY GOSH!!
i havent touch the computer or came online for 6 DAYS!!
argh.
this is such a killer.
yeah.
sorry for my so dead blog.
my computer is down and its have been sent for repair.
yeah.
so just this short thing now.
will post... soon hopefully.
yeah..sighx.

i am rushing with time.
chem remedial next.
shyte.
i hate AMATHS AND CHEM.
crap.
and i have been stressing myself up due to my slack-ness during the september hols.
to me, i didnt study and do enough work.
to you guys, perhaps it was alright.
i really hate myself for wasting a week like that.
18 more days to DOOMS DAY.
sighx.

oh ya. did i mentioned that..
I SAW SOUL!!
woah.
remember how i didnt saws them the other time.
yeah.
it wasnt intention to see them at the superstar auditions the other day.
it was last sat 090906.
i was with my dad to toa payoh to get my new phone and plan.
yes!
100mins plus 1000 sms and a new phone.
rocks.
then, i happen to see brods(band from superband)
and i was on my way to the MRT station to meet rachel at cine for flea market.
i decided to wait and see my luck as rachel would probably be late and JUz-B was already performing.
I WAS 3m AWAY FROM SOUL!!!
rocks man.
yeah.
and i took a super blur pic cos my phone cam SUCKS!!
but it was better than nothing.
THEY LOOK SO GOOD LIVE!!
rachel was on time for once.
and she waited for almost 1/2hr for me.
sighx.
HA!
I AM SO SORRY!

yeah. thats all i can post for now.
gotta run for my chem lesson.
i am LATE!!

hate all these crap.

yeah. i really hate this.
whatever that is happening to me now.
sorry.
but you cant blame a girl to be like that.
i hate how older siblings should get scolding cos her sister flare up for NO GOOD REASON.

i just close a damn freaking internet window she finished watching her youtube and she FLARED UP.
she kept on screaming for no good reason when i held the mouse.
damn it.
i so wanted to punch her on her face, damn it.
i cant even remember how we fought.
everything happened so fast.
i know i am rough, but she didnt have to make me fight with her right.
damn shit face.
i dont really give a crap damn about my family members looking at my blog now.
i can like purposely go give them my website and tell them to visit EVERYDAY.
maybe that could understand me that 1% more.
parents, sisters.. ARGH
i dont deny that i think i am some psyco problem kid, but why do i always get the blame.

every school day, waking up at about 6 - 6.35am
will make sure i get my sister up by 630am
i will make myself be prepared by 645-650am
then, start nagging my dad to be quick if not erkor will be late for school again.
realised that SHE is always so slow and as i get impatient, i tell her to be quick.
as i am the must reach school on time person who hates to be late, my voice will be as if i was scolding everyone in the morning.
sorry, i dont know who planted that in me.
that i wanna be on time and stuff.
i so wanna F in this post..ARGHHHHHhhhhhhh.
fish fish fish fish fish YOU
i shouldnt use the F word, i dont wanna go against what i believe.

people dont appreciate for who you are.
they wouldnt until you dissappear forever.
everyone thinks that my morning screaming and nagging is just not working to get all of the house early enough to get erkor's butt in school on time.
fine, to me, it work.
why would i wanna waste my damn sliva on some people who dont even appreciate me for me?
yeah, i wouldnt after this hols.
i made up my mind.
i will either sit at home and stone and everyone will be late for school and work, or go to school myself.
i attempt to do these before
they dont want me to go school by myself
its not safe.
outside my house to busstop is not exactly safe when its dark.
but think about it, by surpressing all these in me, do you think its good for me?
for shouting and nagging people early in the morning, its such a bad start for the day for me.
so you think that its good?
you think i enjoy screaming? no. NO!
if i am a singer who really train my voice on my own, you think i would wanna screw it up.
you think i wanna throw my damn passion into the drain.
SHIT NO!

talking about passion, why cant i take design??
wtfish, i know designer is a difficult path to go.
but passion pulls you through!
cant believe how you always ask me to help you with design while you say that no one would like my design when i wanna take designer course.
bull shit crap man.
super irony.

now i really understand how people could be really lively in the past and cos of an incident, they turn super cold to everyone.
i think that will be me one day.
yes, introvert.
to think about it, if i were not in MG but in some neighbourhood school, i would be like be in some gang group leader.
seriously, i really feel like punching someone now.
walls dont work for me.
cos i wanna punch person.

sighx, me having mental problem?
its not possible now.

studying psycology? being a psycharist?
i think i need one and sighx, i would know why all those kids are coming to me.
cos they face the same things i do at home.

now i understand why people can chop a person up after killing him/her.
relax, i wouldnt kill someone.
i will live to my own principle in life.
if not, i am the total loser.
if i would to kill one person in this world, it would be this person typing this post up.

all i have to do now is shut my mouth and dont talk to anyone
should everyone attitude and back to my daoness.
how i wish that there is such a thing as indepedent person.
someone who can live without anyone.
i just need my space and music.

i dont know how to open all these to the lord.
yes, i know he will be dissapointed with me.
but what can i do, scream at people who piss me off?
no, i only can scream at myself.
this world is not fair at all.
its like how bad rule over good.

i would curse anyone here.
i would just say all the best to you rean.
i dont know what will happen so just look out.

music, the first thing i thought that can get me out of what i am facing now.
i need to sing.
sing everything out.
this is how i unwind myself.
music - universal, international language
i will hit the piano maybe.
i tell myself, i wouldnt cry.
that are for people who are .. ..
i dont know, i think i am one such person.
the more i tell myself to not cry, the more i feel like.
I MUST LIVE TO WHAT I SAY!

i will get over this once i post this, hopefully.
rean needs to cool down at this moment and .. ..

1st time ponning lesson without my mum's knowledge.
shhh..
but at least angie mentioned that the chem textbook was better than THE TEACHER..
so, yeah.
im not disspointed that i missed out the lesson.
2 topics to address today.

ONEwhy didnt doreen go for her lesson?
when i was out of the house, i decided to meet up with squeak and go school together.(cos we stayed so near)
she just woke up, totally forgot about chem.
i went back home to wait for her to get ready.
cont waiting at her busstop.
*take note: we were alr late for lesson
we alighted at school busstop and went mobil, meet mil hunting for food inside who was waiting for juu.
mil wanted to go KAP's cold storage to get more food.
meet juu and went KAP
finish shopping for food, we wanted to let mil eat for a while and go for our alr very late lesson.
we decided that we wouldnt understand whatever taught anyway so we stayed in KAP studying.
we figured out that lesson were boring and terrible(somehow..not telling)
others came for their lunch and saw us.
everyone decided to not go for anymore lesson after lunch cos it was killing and they didnt understand redox at all.
angie at last got it when she read the textbook.
i am so happy that i didnt go, at least i studyed a new chem topic all by myself and one that isnt in the eoys..crap.
but still, i did do something.

yeah. HA!
now, i am so afraid that she would call my mum up and tell her.
if she makes me give her an excuse letter, i am dead too.
shyte.
i will make the letter up somehow..HA!

TWOwhy was my name suppose to be Dawn Soon Jia Hui?
lets start everything from scratch.
my name was suppose to be Dawn Soon Jia Hui.
you know dawn means very early morning.
yeah, so dawn soon meant, its going to be MORNING SOON.
my mum was afraid pple will make fun of my name.
and someone in my church was called Soon Jia Hui alr.
so she decided to change it to Doris Soon Jia Yun.
but, something else arise.
she went to name the church choir Jia Yun Shi Ban(Jia Yun choir)
and if i was called jia yun, it would be like a choir dedicated to me.
so it became Doreen Soon Yun Hui.
i dont know why it isnt Doris though..HA!
jia yun is such a lovely name.
maybe i will name my daughter Dawn ___ Jia Yun:)
i better not marry a soon..HA!
if not i cant use that name...lol.
OH MY i like jiayun better than yunhui.
yes, the long history to my name:)

today is so fun.
i feel so weird trapped at home now.
going to study with squeak tmr i think.
dont feel like studying in KAP anymore.
but if we cant find another place, we will.
i really cant study at home.
I LOVE JUU!!
cos she thinks that daniel is not good looking while HYUN BIN LOOKS CUTE:)
everyone thot that daniel is hot.. but who cares.
I LOVE ASIAN GUYS!! blegh.

ngee ann poly, early childhood education, arts stream.
yeah.
i really hope i get into that course now.
like REALLY.
i dont know why.
if GOD have his plans, he will have his way for me to get in there.
jo scares me as how she tells me its so difficult to get into that course.
sighx.
for now, i dont hope much.
just let me get through sec 3 and promoted into sec4 smoothly.
everything is really scary me now.
i got a huge feeling that no matter how much i study, how early i start, i will fail really badly.
look, if everything conts like what it is now, i would fail chem, amaths, emaths(maybe) and SS/history.
shyte.
i am so dead.
i just wanna do well for physics, english, chinese, literature, emaths & chem
and pass amaths(for once) and SS/history(for once).
sighx.
do wanna crush all those books, burn them, mix them in my food, eat it and POO it out.
eww.. gross. food with ash..
YUCKS!

i am drifting from him really quickly.
i dont wanna be like that.
maybe cos i havent went for cell for a month now.
crap, i feel so bad.
i NEED TO GO FOR CELL THIS WEEK and get myself close in his embrace again.
father, pls give me wisdom and the motivation to study and get promoted to sec 4.
i need you at this point of time.
i dont ask for much, just let me pass all the subjects...argh.

seven

EDITTED
Seven things that scares me
1.dark, being in my room all by myself, that includes sleeping.
2.wars and disasters eg.WW3
3. any scary movies. after watching titanic, i couldnt sleep well for 3 nights. now you know what i mean scary by.. let alone ghost movies.
4.water, as in a pool of water
5.going to hell
6.dogs
7.my huge emotions swings

Seven things I like the most about myself
1.the fact that i can laugh at myself for all the stupid things i do
2.being able to be myself even though everyone laughs at me
3.make big dreams about my future
4.dont let others see thru me as easily as i seem to be
5.for being special, not trying to fit in. eg. dreaming of being a korean..
6.making pple around me laugh
7.FOR BEING SHORT!!:) God has a plan for everything right?

Seven most important things in my room
1.queen-sized bed
2.huge radio/cd-player
3.wardrobe
4.3 angle mirrors that no one else have:)
5.earrings
6.cds!
7.books!(diaries,magazine,bible,no story book...HA!)

Seven random facts about me
1.MUSIC IS MY LIFE!!
2.my name was suppose to be Dawn Soon Jia Hui
3.I WANNA GET MARRIED TO A KOREAN:) korea..rocks!!
4.i only listen to chinese, korean and jap music.
5.i love gummies,white chocolate, watermelon and lollipops.
6.i hate ANIMALS(exp fish) AND CHOCOLATE!!
7.i am not aneroxic, just take care of what i eat.

Seven things I would like to do before I die
1.thank GOD for my life
2.GO KOREAN and shop eat till i drop:)
3.spread the word to all my love ones
4.at least get to do a bit of all my ambitions
5.get married and have kids?HA!
6.talk to all my love ones(that includes friends) and tell them how they have impacted my life
7.GO KBOX, sing and dance till i drop!!

Seven things I can't do
1.swim for NUTS!
2.score well in my exams
3.LIVE WITHOUT FRIENDS!!
4.not sing for a day
5.use photoshop
6.punch someone i really hate in his/her face
7.SPEAK proper KOREAN!!(thou i can sing korean)
i decided that i dont wanna learn jap anymore since everyone trying to learn jap. i wanna be special..korea..argh.!!

Seven things I say the most
1.yoz
2.asshole
3.stupid
4.oh my gosh
5.huh??
6.what the hell(got influenced by angela)
7.ooi!

Seven celebrities that comes to your mind first
1.SHE
2.SOUL
3.ENERGY
4.HYUN BIN
5.sun ah(the actress kim sam soon)
6.BoA
7.xiao zhu SHOW

Seven people I would like to see do this
1.squeak
2.lydia tan
3.genia
4.elieen
5.joanne
6.cassie
7.angie:)

LOVE YOU!!

let the pictures do the talking about US wonderful stayover.



happy birthday rachel:)



everyone looking at different directions. vera mentioned that we were like taking family potrait.
yeah, we are!!! family forever girls:)






I LOVE YOU RAINA-na LOTS!!
go figure out if im a les or not..HA!
lol.
raina really look at kailin at some angle.
yeah.


LOVE YOU ALL LOTS!!

PSS AUDITIONS
i went there at 2, left at 430.
i saw,
tongen, geraldine, khim, teresa, yuyang, jason(pss), another pss dude and singer which i cannot remember their name.. heex. paiseh.
tongen look really good life.
really, much better than i expected.
she is so gorgeous, i just realised.
her singing is so good, my gosh.
OH AND MOST IMPORTANTLY, I SAW RENFRED.
cos i found a really good spot there like, one meter away from the stage.
im so smart.
it was like spending a nice 4 mins with renfred.
aww, so sweet.
his singing improved and he still look as good.
THE PISSING THING ABOUT EVERYTHING IS i didnt get to see soul
dont know what happened to them, worried.
sighx, i went there for the intention to watch them.
i must say i enjoyed myself a lot.
but i feel so cheated, sighx.
i dont know why.
i didnt get to see them and JUZ-B.
yeah.
maybe they couldnt make is or something, just like sun ho.
yeah.

CSS show is coming up.
yeah. i cant wait to see renfred hit the screens once again.
but in that show, he is going to be with teresa..
sighx. why cant it be someone else, or geraldine??
dean wants to him to act as her bf too..
and she is not acting in this show cos of some timing problem.
crap.
i dont really like teresa still even though her singing was really good today.
doubt there will be a SuperBand show though, cos there is too many people in that competition and too little girls.. HA!

now i know what addiction is now.
you dont feel anything at all, you just wanna see that person.
yeah.
it was like, i didnt even eat my lunch and stood there waiting for soul and watching renfred and dean.
until everything was over, i just realised that i havent eaten lunch.
it was then i realised that i was thirsty, tired from standing and hungry.

THANK YOU MUMMY:)
thanks for letting me stay throughout the whole thing.
sighx, if i knew that you were so nice from the start, everything could have been better.
i remember how i 1st saw ENERGY at J8 w/o her knowing, but went home and got a trashing for coming home so late but likely vera's mum fetched me home.
the 2nd time seeing ENERGY was at J8 too, autograph session with lydia.
i still remember how we queued for 7 hours, waited 45 mins cos of the weather they were late, then getting into the place to get my album signed.
i left like when its going to be my turn in like 1/2hrs time??
its just 1/2 hr more, but mummy called and ask me to go home.
if that time i didnt get her permission, i wouldnt have seen ENERGY face to face...
lydia was right, i shouldnt assume that my mum would not allow me to see them, i should have open my mouth and ask, like today.
haix, but i was so afraid that she wouldnt allow.
THANKS again mummy, love you:)

yeah.
clique picture will be coming up.
thats until faith sends it to me:)
no pressure, faith.
but await for the pics, its really nice:)

THANK GOD FOR EVERYTHING.

tmr, doreen will start to push her specs up and study like a nerd.
a nerdoreen..
yeah, like what was said on genia's blog. nerdoreen, murdureen.
whatever to that though..HA!
i dont wanna fail FLAT ON MY NOSE so i will continue to start to be nerdy once again.
yes, this weekend was a GREAT, FANSTASTIC FILLED weekend that really helped destressed me and i am willing to study really hard this coming 5 days cos i can tell that, GOD PLANNED ALL THESE.
thanks father:)

adapting life like what it have to give me.
all the sad emo memories pushed aside.
say HALO to happy life:)
i dont need you

TMR TMR TMR!!
yeah. i am so CONFIDENT that i will see SOUL.
hope not alot pple will go there and crowd the place..
moreover, RENFRED will be there too.
see both FREDs on the same day..
so cute;)
there is geraldine and zhiyang too...
WOAH!
just realised that MLB wouldnt be appearing
so, i really cant find anyone who will go there with me there and be so siao.
but thinking about it, if me alone go there and watch them, wouldnt it be really weird.
its like, everyone is going with a friend and i am all alone..
sighx.
it will be weirder if my sis joins me.
and i have to keep a look out for her.
sighx.
the saddest thing is, i dont have a DAMN camera.
so i cant take any pics..
damn.
its okay.
everything shall be in my HEAD:)

:)
oh.
i am going NUTS
SOUL SOUL SOUL.
thinking about them makes me crazy..
ok, that sound a little wrong.. HA!
andy, justis, alfred, awi & ishi .. ..
HERE I COME:)

ngee ann poly.
the place where i agreed with my future to go.
yes, i think i will enjoy myself if i study there.
and i guess that is where HE wants me to go.
that is the direction i have been asking these few months for.
THANKS ALOT MYbelovedFATHERabove:)

now i miss my clique terribly.
really enjoyed myself to the max pls.
HA!
genia, it would be really weird to still have stayovers when we are 40s, but i dont mind:)LOOKING FORWARD TO OUR POST-EXAMs stayover:)

watched the devil wears prada this afternoon.
its not a very nice show thou.maybe its just me.
found it a little boring thou.
i love the way the director did the shooting thou.
i did learn a little something though.
not exactly learn, but a reminder for me.
sorry squeak, i watched it w/o you..

the song that kunda wrote on ENERGY's new album is damn meaningful pls..

HA!
sorry, really random.
but i really love the lyrics.
interested in the song, pls ask me:)
like online or something.. yeah

kimsamsoon kimsamsoon kimsamsoon,
hyun bin is so cute.
i know it doesnt rhyme, its not suppose to anyway.
i dont understand why rachel&trina like daniel.
that henry dude.
sighx.

i am going nuts over all SOUL, ENERGY&kimsamsoon:)
its his birthday today.
and my blog 1yr anniversary a few days ago.
sighx.
neverending memories.

CLIQUE STAYOVER

i love my clique.
YEAH!
at last going out and spending the whole day together.
yeah.
ALL 7 OF US:)
HA!.

in vera's hse now.
faith couldnt stayover... sighx.
only if all of us could stayover.
its okay.
we will one day.
everyone is going crazy over kim samsoon.
i so hope hyun bin would come to singapore.
SO CUTE:)

OH YA!, vera mum can cook for nuts ok.
the STRAWBERRY CHESSECAKE is so damn nice.
shyte..i loved dinner as well.

HAPPY early 10 days BIRTHDAY TO RACHEL LIN JIA
baby of our clique..HA!

at last changing phone and plan... YES.
on 4th sept.
so, will so look forward to that...

vera is so angry that raina changed her phone wallpaper.
cos vera was her wallpaper.. HA!
ok, damn off point.
sighx..
i am getting too high pls.
i dont even feel like going for cell tmr cos wanna spent more time with clique.
see about it tmr.

I CANT BELIEVE.
SOUL!!! rocks man
on sunday, appearing at Toa Payoh HDB HUB.
performing after 2.
yeah, i can always rush there after service since church is only 5 mins away from there.
LOVE IT:)
next sat, 9th sept, at HDB HUB again, they are performing, but dont know what time yet... heex.
cant wait to go and see them.
but i think alot of pple will be there...
i really wanna see them thou.. HA!
maybe i should ask cassie to go with me, see if her MLB is going or not.
BLAHBLAH, i love my SOUL.

now vera is complaining non stop.
shyte... HA!
she is saying how she will just delete my post if it is emo.
HA!, cos i am using her computer... hee.

ok, should stop here now.
vera is complaining how long my post is.
sighx.. vera tan argh.
ok.
nights for now.
or i should say EARLY sat morning:)

*i really feel so fat but yet anorexic

DOREEN IS A STUPID GIRL!!
yeah, i am.
in the sense that, my back is already so painful and i made it worse.
okay, background information.
shit this sound so history source base.. nvm-.-
now, doreen is currently going high on SOUL.
and so happen, she found out that rising sun was sang by this korean band, dong fang shen qi(DFSQ) and ENERGY's ai shi kong was sang by them too.
she went to check them out on youtube since she saw their advert for their new album on the tv.
'THEIR DANCING IS SO GOOD', she tells herself.
and now, she is stuck on youtube, on the computer cos ofDFSQ.
yes, she is always getting high on boybands and singers at the wrong time of the year..
(ie, psle-5566, sec1 eoys- ENERGY, sec2 midyear- ENERGY,sec3 eoys - SOUL,DFSQ)

okay, enough of background info before i start posted lots of guys pictures... lol.
then yesterday i was really DAMN HIGH after watching rising sun mvs in chinese, korean and jap.
for dinner, cos i sat so long infront of the computer learning a maths and on youtube, i couldnt sit down and have my meal, so i end up standing thru the whole dinner.
i started dancing cos i couldnt limit myself as there was so much more space to move around when you are standing up compare to sitting down.
i started like dancing for a good 30 mins.
i admit i really thought i was MAD.
my mum,sister and maid definately thought like me too.
i was sweating like A COW!!
its like raining.. yeah.
and before i knew it, my back hurt like SIAO!!
ok..fine.
this is the story about how stupid someone can get under time of stress.
HA!

my back hurts so much, my lips and finger are swollen for dont know what reason.
i am like the weakest in my family now.
even the doctor recognises me as the sicky.
yeah, teachers are afraid of me cos when i am sick, I AM SICK and will be for at least a week..
HA!
yeah, i really wanna learn how to dance and i need my back to recover before it becomes un-curable...
no more moving too much at the moment.
the doctor said i couldnt run, i dance... DUMB!

no happy children's day to me.
happy pain day perhaps..
no.
its happy painful stress day..
argh
english paper 1 and SS paper tmr.
pray for me.
all the best to fellow friends in mgs.
good luck for me.