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Friday, September 23, 2005

yepyepyep

haix. another week to the biggest exams for the year. i am so happy. yesterday didnt played with 2m for pe. so i am not pissed at all. spent like my whole afternoon in KAP yesterday with faith and rachel.was like from 2.30 to about 7. ha. 4 1/2 hr. actually rachel suggested that we go there and study but end up, i am the only one doing work lar. both of them so sian sian one. the surprising thing is we talk and talk for so long and we didnt really gossip much. i mean usually people will gossip about the school stuff and all. but we were really mainly talking about ourselves and our views over stuff. we talked alot about christian stuff and love. ha. dunno why too. all i now is when i came home, i felt really holy. as in, god's presence too. KAP is so much nicer now!!! the setting is so good just that all the chairs are so short and the tables are so high. some of the chairs were rocky too. i and faith felt so bad sitting on the low chairs and high tables. they are out to critisize short pple like me. so mean. but i really enjoy all the chatting there. never was once i was so open to my friends. but too bad, you will never know wad we said cos its all within the 4 walls of KAP. we promise not to tell anyone. ha. I WANT TO KICK OFF THE HABIT OF GOSSIPING!!! i also want to try to kick off the habit of idolizing. sighx. god help me pls.

Saturday, September 17, 2005

belerbarelarbelerbarla BOO!!!

ok. i made up that word. haha. seems so werid. heez. did flag day today. and had to keep on saying ' Hi, would you like to donate?' and got like rejected so many times lar. break up heart. ahha. did the flagday with trina which got quite irritated with me half way through. but we took so much effort to get donations ok. dunno walk how many kms up and down orchard ok. but end up, we always go to the same old staircase at plaza sing. sighx. only when we were at that stairway then did people donated. saw ethan ong opposite taka. he is that 6yrs old boy who play drums. he can play the drums super well lar. and someone commented that he was too young to be good. me and trina felt so loser when we saw him playing the drums. its like 100 times better than we are. and ethan ong is damn cute. ha. especially the way he plays the drum. ha. lydia went for her 56 auto session today. wonder how it went. suppose to go with her cos i still owe her a 56 event. and couldnt go cos of gb flagday. sighx. sorry lydia. haix. anywaes, today had my eng oral too. the oral was okay lar. just hope i can score well. i dun wanna fail english once again lar. still considering to take full geog or lit. sighx. can someone give me some comments about the 2 subs? i still damn mad at wadeva happened yesterday.
to my opponent: WADEVER!!! say all you want. its not like as if you can find a very good job by doing so well in that area. who cares. talk all you want and we will not bother. sighx...even if you beat us in that area, doesnt mean we cannot beat you in other areas right. you should noe what i am talking about. dun be too ego. its not good you noe. we dun bother whatever you say, talk, gossip or even bitch about us. so stop thinking you are one head higher than us.
sighx. i feel so bad about all these happenings. cos its like a christian shouldnt haf all these bad thinking. i haf been so angry and fed-up over this matter.

Friday, September 16, 2005

my blood is boiling like mad.

cos of who. sighx. the whole 2t noes who it is right. i still pissed now lar. i took quite long to get over the other one. i think 1 1/2 weeks lar. ok not so long. but when i just cooled down form the previous one, this time my blood is boiling even higher. cannot take it liao lar. i noe you pple must be thinking that this matter is just a small matter. but to me, it is not. not that it is a great big matter too. just that i hate it. hated this type of things happening right from the start lar. how can someone smack you on the face with her shoe and you can say its alright?! duh you will be mad over it right. yes. i got smack on my damn face by someone with her shoe during a captain's ball game today and it was suppose to be a revenge for her teammate. cos someone from my class accidentally step/kick her face as she was on the ground. but dun haf to take the revenge on me right? its like saying girlA stole something and girlB gets the punishment. its so unreasonable. sighx. i dunno how long will my blood boil until. dunno when my temper will come down. hope it will in a month's time. the previous time i got mad over a pair of ENERGY concert tickets for 3 months. yes. i duuno why i am like that too. i am just hot-tempered and damn short-tempered too. dunno how much vulgarities was running through my mind and out of my mouth through the whole game lar. sighx. i noe its confusing cos i am not mentioning names here. but i realised that the people in 2t are getting more sporty and participating in the game today and that is pretty good. people that use to stand arounf doing nothing or those who dun run much actually played their part today. really happy for them. haha. we are like more united as a class which is really good news. ha. but the other bad thing is everyone in 2t are getting more hot-tempered like me! ha. and more rough and competitive. we dun really mean to snatch balls from pple in a captain's ball game, or even step on their faces or do anything else. it was out of anger i guess. i noe our class dun like to lose to. lose to other classes. our class use to be known the worst class in the sec2 level. our results have really improved quite alot [to me lar] and the cliques in our class is starting to open up and mix with the people around. our results are still going up [i suppose] and i really hope our class wouldnt be the lowest in the sec2 level for our end-year-exams. we have to do our best. ha. my blood is still quite high but really hope i can cool down asap and we could really not be enemies with 2m anymore. but speak for myself, i dun think i can. i guess i will have high blood pressure sooner or later. ha!
actually, i am feeling both angry, depressed now. angry cos wad happen today. and depressed cos of wad happened on 16april05. as in, the 16april05 thing is king of a ripple thing lar. i noe alot of people in class realised my depression today. trina was finding me abnormally not talking much at all and angela realised that i abnormally didnt even talked to anyone and didnt even laugh at all after reccess today. i dunno. i always thot that time would heal the pain but i think it got worse. everything is a question mark to me now. wad will happen tmr? no one noes. what will be the ending of everything? no one noes.
i hate it! i am peeling like siao liao. not exactly. i purpose rub my skin cos it look as if it was coming out. but i have patches of 'white' marks on my hands. yep. peeling from my tan. i love my tan so much ok. and for the 1st time i am peeling. thats all for now. off to watch wang zi ban qing wa.

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

ha.

hahahahahahahahahahahaha. cant wait for tmr. gonna watch wang xi ban xing wa. i think its gonna be a great show. ha. yep. all taiwan idol drama are all GOOD. ha. though i am not obessed with any of the singers or actress/actors there. but its like for fun kind of thing. ha. had chinese 7 eleven book and geography test today. hope i get a A1 for chinese but i just hope i can pass geog. i didnt really study cos i concentrated reading the 7eleven bk yesterday. chinese rawkz. ok out of point. i guess i was am really sort of moody these days. dun even feel like studying. i noe why i am so looking forward to tmr liao. cos my mum is coming back. woohoo.... yes. ha. then i dun have to feel so lonely. ha. the house feel somehow empty these daes.miss me mum nagging and scolding at me. cos usually when i go crazy and jump and start singing all of a sudden or laugh/vibrate at home, my mum will be like 'you fa feng liao ah' [going mad again izzit?] and i will go irritate her like how i irritate ruth today in computer lesson. ha. and my mum will be like 'bu yao ze yang lar. mei tian feng feng dian dian de' [dun do that lar. everyday crazy crazy one] sighx. i think its really nice to haf someone nagging at you everydae. it will really motivate you to study. ha. tmr is DA day for me. ha. watched the 9pm channel 8 show yesterday, it was not that scary lar. maybe the 1st espisode is more scary? i dunno. cos rachel and genia freaked out while watching it. 12 days ago was niunai's birthday. ha. i am so werid huh. got home econs tmr.
rachel genia faith and raina presenting for their pw presentation tmr. wish them all the best. i think they are rushing through their proposal or powerpoint or something related to pw now. ha. finally i made up my mind and will buy the 56 3rd ablum. its all lydia's fault. now i really haf so many cds to buy. sighx. only if money drops from the sky. only if i find money on the floor everyday when i come home. ha. i am thinking too much huh. gtg and study.

Monday, September 12, 2005

.popping by.

life isnt that bad without my mum after all. i sound as if my mum have left for good. at least i haf ENERGY to accompany me. ha. exchaged ablums with lydia today. she has my ENERGY final fantasy ablum,cos she loved one of the songs, and i haf her 56 hao jiu bu jian ablum to check if toro wrote any songs for 56. once again, toro wrote songs for 56 ablum. he written like 6 for 56 2nd ablum, 2 for 56's previous ablum and one for their current one. he is just talented izzit he. ha. miss him too. feeling sad for lydia and her darlings. 56 ablum is not bad lar. i haf thots of changing my blogskin. dunno if i should. advise me pls. ha.

Sunday, September 11, 2005

...

so much uncompleted work. i dun have the mood to study or do work. i dunno why. maybe cos my mum is leaving. so i am just scared. i'm werid. tmr when i come home, i will have to cook dinner and probably do some housework and washing. i noe. i haf a maid at home right. but i have 3 kids at home and 3 teens who dun do housework at all. and i am the only one who will do housework and look after kids. yes. i am going to haf white hair. hate to take care of kids actually. but for my mum, i think i will be able to overcome my irritation for kids. my mum is only coming back on thursday and i have 3 tests to study for. i doubt i will have time to blog so i am blogging now. sighx. dunno how i will be a mum next time since i cannot take care of kids. nvm. i just hope that the teacher dun give us so much hw so i will have a time for breather. haix. really miss them now. you should know who i am talking about. wondering how they are doing now? wad will happen tmr, no one noes. i want my happy ending pls.
happy birthday to rachel.
i noe i said that yesterday already cos i was afraid that i would not blog today.
i just realise all my blog timings are in a mess. so is my life.

Friday, September 09, 2005

sighx. one more day.

one more day and everyone haf to return to school. sighx. haf not even prepared for any of my tests next week. sighx. wanted to study and study and study for this holiday but end up, i go out almost everydae. i am so happy today. at last i got to go out with my daddy together. as in, only the two of us. i dun always go out with my daddy, that's why i am so happy. i didnt go to the wedding with my mummy cos i wanted to spend time with my daddy even though he only told me last night while my mum told me on monday. its ok. my mum haf my sister for company. we went to geylang methodist chinese funfair and its quite... boring. ha. i thot with $70 worth of tickets i would not be bored. but who noes, the place was too small and all the stalls were selling food. the games were all kiddy and there is stall that was selling paintings. boring. but i managed to spent all $70 on food and my dad help me carry all my bags. ha. now i noe why girls always needed a guy to carry her bags. but end up when i came hope, i didnt eat any of the food. there are all so spicy. sighx. so only eat a taiwan la can, 3 fishballs and a bottle of soybean MILK. ya. milk. ha. oh ya. and you noe wad. my da kor was surfing the net today and looking at all his friends blog and commenting how stupid the blog's skin were. but some of them were really quite alright. then i was thinking if their's are bad then how about mine? mine is so kiddy in a way. yep. i kept on telling him my blogskin is worst and he made me show him my blog. fine, i showed him. when he 1st saw my blog, he was like "at least your blog name is good. your blogskin is ok lar. i like blogskin with animations". i was telling him how kiddy the cows look and then he told me, "at the most people will come to you and tell you how cute your cows are and steal them from you. then you go and make or find a blog skin that has 5 guys or ENERGY and put it as your blog skin lor." after he said this, i was like SHOCKED lar. he really.... omgosh. i lur him the moment he said that ok. my da kor rocks. ha. cos usually he and my er kor will be so against me when i watch ENERGY's vcd and stuff. and he even asked me to changed my blogskin if people like ruth lim[ha] was going to steal the NIUs away. ha. somehow, i am quite happy that my blog name haf nothing related to ENERGY. i doubt i will like them the rest of my life. everything in life is so unpreditable right. ha. suddenly, i miss dorcas so much, my childhood friend. she is the only friend i knew for 14 years. played since we were young. somehow i think i am the worst and dumbest person in the world. i haf so many failed friendship. i lost all my close friends who use to say that we will be the bestest of friends for our whole life. these are just broken promises, or even lies. i just hope i will treasure all the friendships i am having now.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO RACHEL!!!
the baby of our clique. ha. at last we all are 14 liao. sighx. its as if we are so old. ha.

to trina, vera, faith, raina, rachel, genia, ruth and lydia.
really hope our friendship would at least last us through our secondary life. hope our clique would stay as one for the rest of our seconday life. sighx. i never had such close friends like you pple until this year. even though i dun really talk a lot about myself to some of you, but i know that you will be there for me when i need you.

sighx. recently i am in this 'afraid of losing friendship' mood. guess i got affected by ENERGY. sorry. haf to mention them again cos i think you guys are bored hearing me talking about them. really. you will never noe what lies for you tmr. even your closest friend on earth can betray you or leave you for no reason. i hope that doesnt happen on me anymore. i haf enough of it liao. even your bestest buddy haf to leave you due to some contracts or studies or even injuries. yes. if you really dun understand wad the hell i am talking in this paragraph, its just all the ups and downs ENERGY haf experienced as a band and i think its so true. but i am not refering to anyone.

Thursday, September 08, 2005

at last!

at last i am posting my blog with the help of english words. at in, i had a hard time doing my blog and updating it as all the stuff are in chinese and only wadeva i am typing is im english. sighx. if you dun understand it is ok. even though all you pple think i am a chinese pro, its still turf ok. i am not deb chan. haa. her handphone is all in chinese. even the sms part. ha. anywaes, i think its so werid to update your blog 2 time in a dae. its ok. cos i haf the time anywaes. the purpose of waking up so early today was to go and meet trina at rail mall to buy all the stuff we need for rachel's surprise b-dae party. yep. then me and trina was freaky out when it started to drizzle. we thot we counldnt make it. [wasnt it only me or did you also thot that way?] then, trina's mummy to the rescue. haha. came and fetch us to faith's hse. meet vera and the void deck with her op top and blue skirt. faith made us wait for her to come down and pick us up. we went to faith's hse. genia and raina came a bit later and we were doing the powerpoint for rachel plus so many rehearsals before rachel came lar. luckily rachel got lost and took the wrong bus. if not, the whole thing will not be so successfully liao. thank God. ha. so rachel came along and me, trina and vera was hiding in the toliet with her chocolate eclaire. she got a shock when she saw us and the powerpoint. ha. she didnt believed that we had so many pictures of her. me and trina got her a bar of fruit and nut chocolate. ha. and rach kept on mentioning that she will get fat but she also ate quite alot. ha. but the best part of the whole thing at faith's house today is the lunch part. its like our house. the house that the 7 of us own and we were having a meal together. i dunno how to exactly sae it. its just like a big family. and i suddenly i thot that life without these people around me, i may even die. as in die of bordem and friendship. rachel's surprise party today just reminded me of my surprise party earlier this year. i noe exactly how rachel felt today. i can still recall the feeling i had when they surprised me. i knew immediately that they were the friends i haf to treasure most in my secondary school life or even forever. i was only closer to rachel, genia, vera, raina, faith and trina for 4 months and they are already throwing me a surprise party. i only knew them for 2 1/2 months and they are already accompanying me to my very 1st ENERGY concertin J8 and had to wait for me in the crowd while i watch the concert and rachel had to get on trina's back just to take some of the ENERGY's pics for me.[ actually i thot it was vera. then trina said that it was her and not vera cos vera is too weak. ha.] How can you find this kind of friends easily onearth? i must really thank GOD! i just hope that our clique's friendship or even relationship can last for a long time. i am just so afraid of next year when we have to choose diff subjects and get into all diffenert classes. its like i haf to make new friends all over again. sighx. i noe i am not a very positive person but...i am just afraid lar.lets continue with my day. went to buy jelly ice-cream with trina and vera after we left faith's hse and vera was complaining about hte ice-cream non-stop cos it wasnt sourapple. wadeva. and she was also afraid that she will die after eating the ice-cream. yep. i went home and slept like a pig for 5 hours ?!?!?! i dunno how i did that too. i guess i was really tired. ha. gtg now.

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

wadeva

had such a boring day yesterday with lydia in toa payoh. maybe cos i go toa payoh very often. sighx. yep. end up we went toa payoh to do our project. lydia was being so irritating for not accepting my proposal to her. she and her 'hao jiu bu jian' [ long time no see] her 56 ablum lar. actually, the name of the ablum sound werid thot. but no comments. sighx. today going out again early in the morning. for some stuff that i am not allow to review until tmr. i thot my mum will not allow me to go but luckily, she did. i haf not been studying or even doing any revision for my end-of-year exams for this holiday yet. got a lot of things to attend. i only haf tonight and the whole of tmr to study lar. sat still haf a wedding to attend. lydia, you wanna come along? guess wad?! lydia told me that she never been to a wedding before. werid right. ha. anywaes, its my mum's friend's wedding so i think i am really going to be bored to death there. dunno go for how many weddings liao lar. not like lydia. ha! gtg now. cya.

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

.......bleh.

guess wad pple. i haf a nicer tan now...haha. jealous right. just had a lesson on kayaking daes ago. and now i have a C plate license. haha. means can go and rent a kayak and kayak by my own.
the lesson was fun lar thot it was tiring and my skin is killing me now. it hurts when i hit an object ok. and i really hope i will not start peeling. sighx. and i am all red. ha. but not as red as trina. and my tans are really uneven. i haf sandles tan ok!!! so ugly. yesterday had 3 hours full of maths lesson in school. the 3 hours past quite fast somehow. it was fun thot. and the chocolate eclaire mrs poh bought for us was really nice. everyone was loving her. ha. and deb brought a BLUE box of cookies. ha. holiday are here. only one week. it is so short lar. why cant they just give a 2 week holiday instead. this short one week holiday will be like so short and boring like my mc 2 weeks ago. ha. this holiday is as if i am on mc for my sore eye. going out today with lydia to orchard actually. but my mum dun allow lar. dunno wads with her. rubbish. going to do some rich grain home econs project and our maths homework. i gtg go now and study.

Saturday, September 03, 2005

arh. so tired.

yep.today was a super tired dae lar. yesterday sleep at 1am then woke up at 8am todae to go for gb's bible quiz. we got sliver!!! but not everyone was very happy about that. ha. yep. we wanted a gold. but i was pretty satisfied with the results. it was my 1st national competition for gb anywaes. couldnt expect much. the competition was so tiring lar. it was like a amazing race type of thing. so had to run all over the place. it was fun thot. but really tiring and i was already aching all over from yesterday and still haf to run so much today. my legs almost gave up on me. why did i had so much aching? cos of yesterday's pe lesson lar. played floorball with 2m [sports class] and then it was quite a rough match lar. ruth got really injured and bellejoy's hand was bleeding. trina and vera was feeling the aches yesterdae night. i also have aches all over my body. from my knuckles to my backbone and all the way down to my legs. terrible right. i had to drag my feets up the steep slopes at my house after the bible quiz lar. sighx. 2T rocks! ha. you guys all played well yesterday, even though we still lose to 2m. but its ok. at least we lose with dignity. ha. oh ya. social day. one word. bad. ya. should have gotten more bands and better venues. sighx. but can try harder lar. the tickets are really pretty. thats all for now.

Friday, September 02, 2005

happy birthdae!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NIUNAI!!!!
haha. yeah. its niunai darlink's birthdae. heez. lur him lots. so cute. yep.
anywaes, now i really feel like not going to social dae lar. sound so dumb. no mood to go ma. cos tomorrow still haf some competition to go early in the morning and tonight staying late until about 1 am to watch tv. who is gonna be on tv? ENERGY. duh that's why i am gonna watch ma. heez.
today, its niunai's birthday and the last day of term 3 of school. yeah! one week of school holiday. but i haf lots of revision to do for end-of-year examination. and i am so happy for my progress report. ha. got like 3 A1 and 1 F9 ... hee. yes got F9 for history lar. really bad at that subject. 1st time so many A1s. in the past, one A1 also dun haf lar. must thank my clique and lydia lots for that results. cos motivation really keeps you moving and studying. and moreover, i am always the lousy one in studies in our clique lar. feel so bad too. hee. sighx. suddenly miss niunai lots. ok. so out of point. heez. hope i can get my tagboard up on my blog quick. ha. that's all for todae.