sweet lil stuff

Read Each One Carefully and Think About It a Second or Two

1. I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you..

2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry.

3. Just because someone does n't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.

5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can' t have them

6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.

7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.

8. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you.

9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.

10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened.

11. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around.

12. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you.

13. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.

REMEMBER: WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS FOR A REASON.

--------------------[[rip from a forwarded mail]]

why?!

when i decided to let everything go, he had to come back.
the thoughts and feelings towards him have to all come back too..
i am really willing let everything go...
but i guess my heart doesnt right?
remember, you cannot do everything with your head.
cause sometimes your heart will not allow you to do so.
am i going into that depression i thought i left?
why must everything turn out like that?
i dont understand.

i'm in the black and white world of my own
can someone help me colour my world?

BoA

i watched Boa's lastest single's performance on this tv programme for like 20 to 30 times.
ok. i admit i was a little mad.
ha.
but i still cant figure out her dance moves.
and how on earth did she dance so fast and nicely with boots on?
those heeled boots.
oh my gosh.
i already find it tiring to walk on heels and let alone dance and jump in it.
doesnt her leg hurt?
and she still had to mouth the words and smile.
ha.
practice practice...lots.
and her dance is SUPERB.
singing dance looks...all superb.
haix.
and everyone in gb have a bad impression on BoA.
sighx.
who cares. as long as i like can liao.
haha.
my eyes are dying out now.
going to sleep.
good night.

night biking

night biking
it was FUN.
but in the fun, there was sad stuff too.
yep. dun wanna mention it.
i fell...sobZZZ...
but smart doreen wore track pants, shirt and shoes.
no mossie bites for me.
and no injury from my fall.
no bruises at all.
heez.
biking from toa payoh to east coast was fun.
11.30pm from 5.30am.
cycled past orchard at 2.30am
its a life time experience.
cos no police stopped us.
the freaking bike is really tall.
fine. i admit that i am short.
i even have difficulty stopping the bike.
and my butt still hurt now.
8am, reached home
had a 1/2hr nap
then bathed
left the house.
when i reached the bus stop.
wait.
i realised my dressing was...eh hem...BAD!!!
shirt, berms, slippers, pouch hanging on the waist and my hair style
i dun look like ahlian
but AH BENG!!!
crAp!
but heck, i am already late.
went to newton to meet trina faith rachel vera ruth for bowling
siaoz man.
its like i am already dead tired from 6 hrs of biking and there i am going bowling.
anyhow bowl...duh.
freaking tired lar.
and after that in the arcade
spent so much money on the freaking machine lar.
i am damn broke now.
when to church at about 4pm w/o any sleep to meet mum
and had to go the fun fair with her in church.
diaoz.
i am like so tired and had worship practice at 6.30pm in church
NO SLEEP.
5pm, i whinned to my mum that i wanna go home
phew.
worship practice CANCELLED.
thank you father!!!
went home at 5.30pm
no energy to eat dinner liao.
slept until 9am the next day.
oh my!!!
i slept like 15 1/2 hrs.
SIAO ARH!!!
longest record for sleeping.
last time 15 hrs...
yep.
i guess i am born to be a PIG>
nvm. pigs are cute.
ha.
ACHING ALL OVER>
wad do you think.
1st night biking
then bowling
then arcade
siaoz man...
but fun!!!

I WILL MISS RUTH!!!
hope you like the presents.
ha.
i will pay!!!
we should have went orchard.heeren.
the place you wanted to go.
then i would have seen someone there.
someone that i really miss and wanna see.
haix
no fate lar.
ruth the tRUTHful girl who is OUT OF THE OCEAN and into the sea.
heez.
lur YA lots

i guess you are slowing fading away from my life.
i have came out of my depression already.
or i am just trying to lie to myself about everything.
i am not sure too..
but i know i still yearn for your returns.
i still wanna see your smile.
will you go back?
no matter how much i will miss you
and how much my heart will hurt to let you go
i will have to ...sooner or later.
i will have to ...to give you and me our own future
i give you my blessing for everything that you do.
hope you will also give me yours.
will still be there for you.

new hair cut.

1st espisode of ZHEN MING TIAN NU.
aka reaching for the stars.
ha. nice. heex.
anywaes, went to my auntie's house today.
had a new hair cut.
really layered and thin.
the stupid hairdresser layered so much lar.
now my hair makes me look fat.
as in my face only.
my cousins say i look werid and like totally different.
while my mum and bro said no diff.
a bit the big different huh.
but i dunno if to love my hair or not.
cos i'm afraid it would start like curling a bit at the ends.
it would be terrible.
but its thin and shorter now.
i would have to put lots of clips next year when i go school.
or maybe hack care it.

before my this hair cut, pple said i look like kunda

and now pple say my hair look like shuwei

diaoz.
i think it look like BOA's

but the short hair version lar.
ha.
tmr night biking.
so excited.
i am broke...
utterly BROKE.
haix. i still have one more month to hang on there.
finally coming
but i am not.
you are not going to teach me dance.
but maybe i will just go there for fun.
yihua, will you come again?

sighx

went to orchard today.
bought my long awaited ripple slippers.
got a red and white one.
super pretty.
ha.
bought cornflakes with the chicken little toy in it.
got FISH
super cute.
and got chicken little and fish's character stand.
haha. love chicken little.
going aunt's house tmr.
sorry clique, cannot go escape with you guys.
next time better inform everyone when we are going out.
its always like that.
WANG ZI BIAN QING WA last episode
running off now.

haix.

i am like going to rot at home this week.
and actually, my holidays starts and ends this week.
after that, i will have camps and carolling coming up.
then christmas.
there goes my actually well planned holidays.
now i cant even work.
sobz..there goes my money....
wednesday orchard
friday night biking
anyone coming along?
ha.
went for youth service the previous day.
at last, i went for service.
haha. i feel so GOOD
he took away all my depression
and i found myself standing there and worshipping with all my heart.
thank you father.

felt a little werid going for the ym events so often now.
its like a little girl who have left home for a really long time
and now she is going home.
look like she have missed out on alot of things huh.
but, little girl have decided to go home.
haha.

at last someone have asked me out.
me huiyu at orchard for dinner.
so when is my clique going out.?
genia says ask trina.
haha.
trina is like our contacting person.
and she always complain to us bombing her phone bills.
but she is nice helping us to get everyone together.
i still can remember what she told me the other day that was super werid and funny
'next year if you rachel and faith goes out, remember to call me'
it was something like that lar.
feel like buying an ablum.
xiaozhu's....CHICKEN LITTLE!!
so cute.
heard that the person who voiced chicken little is xiaozhu.
dunno if its the chinese version only or the english one.
heard that cyndi and SHE's ablums coming out soon.
can already feel the hole in my pocket.
bouncing off ...

class3o, drill competition, going out

I AM IN SEC3O!!!
i know it sounds not as good as a1,a2,a3,etc..
but i STILL HAPPY WITH MY CLASS>
sec3o is freaking populated with 2t'o5 pple lar.
haha.
rachel faith lydia angela emma annabeth deb kerry stacey sherylene steph and ME
yep.
going to miss the other half of my clique.
especially genia and raina
cos trina and vera are in gb so that aint too bad.
we must still go out like how we do next year ok?
ha

drill competition...
CONTINGENT 5 WON 1ST...
haha
super surprised lar
the whole contingent was..
cos we didnt really expect to win anything.
since we slacked alot and we hardly march in a whole contingent
its just god's grace with us/
THANK YOU FATHER!
we got best commander(chia) and the challenge shield as well
and guess wad.
its my 1st trophy i ever got in my life lar.
i know i am quite a loser.
until sec2 then get a trophy.
cannot blame me also lar.
ha

went out to with contingent 2(trina's contingent) and meijin to orchard
had to go there in FBTs
so disgusting
as in, i dun wear FBTs out
felt so angela...ha
DODO WATCHED A MOVIE
so unlike me.
watched the emily rose show/.
it was alright lar.
but freaked out when i saw the poster...
i didnt know it was a horror movie lar.
and i watched it FOR TRINA.
cos she was going out with her contingent and i sort of tagged along and spent my money on the movie ticket.
movie sucks. (no offence)
but it wasnt that scary after all
this is going to be my ever 1st horror show and the last.
me and sam were like freaking out when we waiting for the movie to start lar.
we were like eating the popcorns super fast
before the show started, we finished 1/2 already.
heez.
trina was suppose to 'protect' me from those scary parts
but end up, i watched most of the show between me trina and sam
it was like WERID>
then we went to cine to take neoprints.
val and her neoprint idea lar.
then we spent like 1 1/2hrs taking neoprints.
diao.

i realised that i am not thinking too much these daes liao.
maybe cos of drill from 9 to 5
by the time i reached home, i am dead tired.
sighx.
now i will have so much time and i will start stoning and thinking of all those rubbish once again
I NEED A JOB NOW
can have we stayover at vera's place again?
no competition for me now.
not going to join that competition.
ha

you are coming at last.
but it seems at if my heart is leaving you.
i know i am trying to lie to myself
saying that i forget you.
no space money time to see you
is this the end of our fairy tale?
when will my fairy god-mother appear?

YUCKX> HATE HER

i really dun understand why people like harry potter so much.
izzit it just some witchy stuff plus some lovelove?
i am SO against watching harry potter
i mean as a christians, we shouldnt even step in that cinema to watch harry potter.
even if like what trina said ' you can go and watch and not believe it' , but why spent your money on it and even bother tempting yourselves to believe it?
its like you telling me to go buy drugs and dont ever taste it?
one would be too curious about it and try it.
like how one would be curious about harry potter and witches and go research on them.
person, sound as if you are a strong christian on your blog.
but you are also a big fan of harry potter.
but issit harry potter witchcraft?
christian are not suppose to watch or have anything to do with witchcraft right?
even if you tell me that witches really exist, i may just believe you.
but how you how that god created that witches?
they can just be humans which are controlled by the devil.
i think listening to pop songs are still more health than watching harry potter.
why bother spending that $10 on the movie ticket and go tempt yourself,
when you can save that money and give it as a offering to god?

i know that the worst thing that one could ever do is bitch on her blog.
that's the dumbest thing.
and why must i put your name on my blog?
you dont even have the honour to have your name on my blog.
haha. thats really evil.
but still, you dont have to bother visiting my blog or get spys to come to my blog to see if i bitched about you or not.
i am a pretty strightforward person
so if you have got anything to bitch about me, tell it to my face ya.
i dont mind telling you what i did bitch about you.
but i think you heard them already.
told it to your face lots of times.
i can give you respect and STOP GIVING ME THAT STARE.

haha. lets stop talking about person liao.
its just wasting my entry space.

going to go out with lydia most probably this weekend.
drill competition this weekend.
cant wait...heez
next week, going out with my clique
going to flood orchard.
lydia's darling coming this weekend
debchan got into triple sci/9 combination cos trina gave up her's.
really happy for her
going to watch wangzi....
thats all for now.

yoz

i suddenly felt that my blog needed more colours
heard that my entries and blog is freaking pple out
just dont bother about me and my depression
ha
i am like quite high after eating chips and drinking coke
and eating a lot of watermelon
heex
then went to brighten up my almost black blog
its like everything is in black and white
ha.
must explore EVERY SINGLE PART OF MY BLOG
like the profile and stuff...
super nice.
gave a HUGE makeover for my blog.
maybe i will change the skin sooner or later
but to wad.
I NEED GENIA!!!

CAMP

just came back from gb camp
it was ok lar
but this time i think it was the worst gb camp i ever went to
THE FOOD SUCK
anywaes, i love the sleeping part
haha...
kept on talking and munching

i just realised that i got the singing competition dates messed up
its on 19 and 20 nov
10am to 6pm
in sch uniform
so if you see a mg girl there
it should be me..
HA
but i need parent consent leh
and dunno if my mum will allow
cos i am a student now
my job is to study and not join competitions
i dunno lar

my mum want me to take either preschool or nursing course in poly
sighx
its like not my ambition lor
yucks
but after i watched the nurse show,
i realised that being a nurse can be fun
but only the collecting urnie sample part maybe abit sick lar
heez.
i still like my beautiful ambition
but it seems to be drifting away from me now
cos of my mum
haix
stacey sister is DAMN CUTE!!!
deborah wee...HA!

music.

i realised today how music can affect one's life
MUSIC IS EVERYTHING TO ME
ITS MY EVERYTHING
the 1st thing i knew when i was born was listening to my mum practicing her choir songs
then i was listening to my mum's choir like 2-3 hrs every week
then joined choir and learn piano at 5
realised how music can really sway your emotions
you can be like really happy but you heard this really sad and touching lyrics song then make you tear
or you can be really moody and you hear all the hiphop songs that just make you dance
you cant abandon music
THANX RACHEL for the encouragment
i thot pple will think that an ambition of being singer is so stupid
i remember how my uncle said that pple became singers cos they cant study
issit true?
mum said that i have to really think through about this ambition
i think its fated that i cant go for the singing competition
i have camp this friday to sunday
and the competition is at J8 10am to 6pm
maybe i can rush there after my camp
but need to queue
hope they will have another dae of auditions
usually they have

you seem to be next to me talking to me
but when i turn around, you are not there.

ROCKY PIZZA, here i come
BK is next on the list
anyone got any jobs to intro to me?
desperatly need one.

THANX

thanx alot genia for encouraging me to go for the singing competition
but, i dun wanna to spolit the nice image of my pretty ambition
thats why
maybe i am afraid and stuff
and thinking that i have to go shop for clothes and get contact lens
forget about it
i will go look for a company after my poly lar
ha
see how things are 1st lar
if i manage to pass there on the 19/20 nov then maybe i will go
cos i dont really expect myself to win
get in top 20 good liao
or izzit the finalist
ha

went orchard with rachelong vera trina vitoria
haha 1st time with this nice group
walked so much in far east
looking for a pretty nice heels to go with vitoria's dress
dont ever put waffle with cream
its not nice, super soggy
but trina likes it
vera trina got cheated in kobayachi
they ate beef noodles that were not good
haha... who ask them not to eat the yummy fantastic SRAMMBLE EGG NOODLES
YUMYUMYUM!!!
super nice and cheap
heez.
deciding to go for maths lesson tmr or not
its really boring
drill tmr...
i think i will be like real serious
somehow cant wait for annual camp this weekend
but dread to go
alot of stuff happened these few daes in the contingents and stuff
haix. why every year also like that?
but i still believe that she didnt do it
like why will she do it
she doesnt even like drill right?
i think this is how to keep friendships
you should stand up for your friend in times of trouble
trust is the most important factor for a long friendship
it keeps everything going

i really start to miss my clique
raina genia rachel faith vera trina lydia ruth
really miss all you guys
hope to see you pple soon
lets meet up soon ya.
will miss raina lots lots
she is away to china for 2 whole months.
haiz.
now i really know what it meant by tresuring your friends.
i hope next year even if we get to different classes and ccas
i hope we will still hang out together.
rachel, you better not dao me next year...ha.

...BLEH...

ENERGY WON 2 AWARDS FOR SG MUSIC AWARDS
haha. my beloved shuai-ges have done it again.
didnt really expect them to get both award.
ha. really happy.
stayed in my cousin's house again
i did it!
i didnt cry that day..
wadeva i promised him..YEAH
i am so happy with myself.
i have the urge to go for that singing competition
but havent ask my mum yet.
ha.
how i used to say that pple who go for singapore singing competition really cannot make it..
and now i haf the urge.
but i doubt i will go.
all they bother is your looks 1st then talent
i am not the type that will put on makeup and wear that pretty skirt on stage
so forget about it
they dun wanna a tomboyish singer right?
and i dun wanna embarrassed myself and pple who know me on tv
ha...
drill and maths lesson tmr..
hope it will be GOOOD.
19 / 20 november....SHOULD I GO?

got you a TRIPLE birthday present
i am smiling at last.

are you ok?

heard that you hurt yourself
are you okay?
why must you pple one by one hurt yourselves?
heard that yihua just hurt himself too
and i just recovered from a knee injury
haix.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHUWEI

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHUWEI
double birthday present
prepared your present the whole of yesterday
hope you liked it
now i know why i am suffering more than others who have heard the news a month ago
cos i am a stubborn, strong-headed and have independent thinking person
i need to learn things from a hard way
thats why i ended like this
like now

feeling bored during holidays
but i found a new way to keep myself busy
by reading the english dictionary and writing chinese lyrics
ha
can improve both english and chinese at the same time
planning to read the chinese dictionary after that
halfway through Macbeth
dunno wad on earth izzit talking about
cos didnt bother reading those footnotes
like the meaning of the words and sentences
but somehow...it doesnt seem as interesting as i thot
maybe only the front part...
hope so
going to watch skyhigh this weekend with my cousin
trina wants to watch that
but i am planning to sleep through it
how good can the movie get?

my promise to you today is i will try to keep my smile
and forget him for today
only for today
i will try to accept you into my life
but remember
dont hurt me

HAIZ

class party... was alright lar.
not as good as i expected
cos there were 2 BIG EXTRAS
hate younger MALE siblings
pity jing shan a lot
ha

really bored at home now
waiting for 3pm
cos they are having a interview on yes933
they have already arrived this afternoon
yes. at 12pm
but he is not here
as said, he will not be coming.
but i will still try to give shuwei a double birthday present
less than 12 hours and its shuwei's birthday
why didnt i liked him
if i did like either shuwei or kunda,
my heart will not be hurt by him.
why?
16months ago, i gave my heart happily to him
16months later, i wanna take my heart back but i realised that i cannot
its like a mission impossible now

i meet this person i havent meet for a long time days ago
he still look the same
everything seems alright
we didnt even exchange a single word with each other
only a hi
both of us in fact were introverts
i realised it only now
there we sat there hours doing nothing
we didnt talk cos maybe of that incident
the incident that drifted us apart
from close friends to almost strangers
but i didnt expect him to block me
we both held the object
its werid
cos we both were like stunned
maybe i had a shocked from the object that was coming to me
and his reaction
he didnt breathe a word and throw it away
i dunno how exactly i feel about him
maybe a close friend that i really dun wanna lose
reading our conversations at my chat logs
i really talk to him about stuff i will not talk to guys about
i am confused DO I LIKE HIM?
but when i cry at night
i realised that i still cant let go of him
cant let go of yihua

i really agreed to the lyrics on my blog
i only want - by 7F
why do love makes every heart breaks?